Where the heck have I been? Geographically speaking, a LOT of places, actually (more on that later!). However, mentally, I spent much of April and May getting my mind around the fact that I am having a baby (eta: Dec 2014)!
James and I "planned" this pregnancy ten years ago and after much heartache, eventually came to peace with not having biological children. When I found out I was pregnant in mid-April, "shocked" doesn't begin to describe the emotion as we truly did not believe this was possible.
It's hard to convey the emotions connected with wanting something so badly, heartbreak and mourning the life you thought you would have, coming to peace with things as they are, embracing being footloose and fancy free ... and then having a gift granted to you ten years later. Life is mysterious and wonderful.
I'm also grateful that, though this did not happen on my timeline, it could not have come at a better time. My Pure Romance business allows me the freedom and flexibility that I only dreamed of ten years ago. Financially, we are in such a solid place. I am so grateful that I'll be able to work from home like so many of our consultants who are also mommas. My jet-setting days may be coming to an end....at least for the time being, but I wouldn't have it any other way!